1 Year On

So here we are, a whole year has passed and we now have a walking, talking beautiful 1 year old little girl.

I was induced a few weeks early and throughout my labour I never allowed myself to believe she would be here. I was petrified. Labour for me was going to be the end. The closest we’d ever got to having an earth baby and becoming a family of 3. I never allowed myself to think things would go smoothly. Aniexty stripped the excitement and anticipation of her arrival leaving nothing but fear.

A perfect baby was placed on my chest. I didn’t feel the overwhelming sense of love many new mums talk about and went into a state a shock. We had done it, all those years and heartache dreaming of this moment and it was here. She was here, my mini me, our Little Libby.

Through the overwhelming emotions and the realisation that she needed me, needed Andrew and deserved nothing but the best from us both it wasn’t long before I fell more deeply in love than I ever imagined possible. She was ours.

That moment change our lives forever, it was the start of what has become the most rewarding, fulfilling, exciting new journey!

She was soon smiling, rolling, sitting, clapping, ‘Dadda, Mumma, Nana, Ta’, crawling, pulling herself up, waving, standing, feeding herself, a tooth, walking, blowing kisses. While my heart bursts with pride every time she does something new there’s a sadness tugging at it too. Where has my little baby gone? She is now fiercely independent, confident, extremely happy & content little girl.

I know every parent dreams of a happy healthy child growing and developing as they should. That I have and I’m so, so thankful but I can’t help but want to pause time for a moment. Don’t grow up too quickly Libby, please.

Libby because of you, I’ve found myself. Because of you, we have a reason to smile every single day. Because of you, we are parents. Something we always dreamed of. Because of you, we know the deepest meaning of love. Because of you, we strive to be the best we can be. Because of you, we are beyond tired - always! But because of you, we are complete, we are one, we are a family. 

Thank you for being everything we ever dreamed of and more. Loving you is the easiest thing I have ever done. You are my rainbow, my sunshine, my everything. 

Happy 1st Birthday xxx