FOURever Is Near

Libby will soon become a BIG sister! Suddenly she doesn’t feel like a baby any more. She’s grown up so much, her communication is just incredible, she is so determined, very independent, inquisitive, always smiling (or pouting 😂) and a little too sassy but we wouldn’t have her any other way. She makes us laugh daily and fills us with so much love & pride. Libby has been my little superstar this pregnancy, sitting beside me through the morning sickness, cuddling up with me for a TV day when the exhaustion takes it toll, and we have enjoyed a few too many biscuits together! 

She wasn’t very well last week nothing serious and she bounced right back but I cancelled our plans, pushed everything else aside and sat the two of us cuddled on the sofa. In that moment it hit me... the realisation that it won’t just be us for much longer. I won’t always be able to forget everything else and just cuddle, someone else will need me as their Mumma too. 

Libby hasn’t had to share me with anyone for almost two years and I can contently say I have loved every precious moment and we have truly made the most of that time together. She won’t remember this time but I will and it will always be so special to me. I feel a little guilty, like I’m taking it away from her. But I have to keep reminding myself what she is gaining...A little brother!

I have two ‘little’ brothers, both bigger than me now! I  have been so lucky to have them, so many childhood memories we enjoyed together and actually very few upsets. I never had to do anything alone as someone was always about to play, at school, at clubs or on holidays. We have had so much fun and we still continue to do so now. They are always there for me and I know that no matter what it is I can call them and they will be there. It’s a truly special bond. 

I am so emotional at the moment, even thinking about leaving Libby for a couple of days while I’m in hospital gets me all teary. I am going to miss her so much, her beautiful fresh brown eyes in the morning when she comes into bed for a cuddle, her nursery rhyme singing and dance bopping, her little voice saying ‘Mummaaaaa’.

For all of us there are some big changes ahead and it’s a little scary. I hear 2 is a game changer?! 

I hope me and Andrew have done all we can to prepare and ensure there is minimal impact on Libby’s world. 

Libby, Thank You for sharing this wonderful journey with me. I’m so excited for our next adventure as a family of 4. I might not be 100% the Mumma you know over the coming weeks but I will always love you unconditionally, you will always be my rainbow and the beautiful little girl that made all my dreams come true. I can’t wait to spend another year at home with both you and your brother. I just know you are going to make the most amazing BIG sister xxxx